LawrenceLim My prayer:
Dear God Heavenly Father, please let this be my sincere prayer to You. I've fully dedicated this blog to You. Please use it as You will for Your purpose. Do keep me encouraged to do this for You even when nobody seems to be interested in it.
Please grant me whatever gifts or help required, including providential circumstances and Your specific directions, not just to do this blog for you, but also to work Your will through me. I belief that if I pray in accordance to Your will, You will be pleased to answer my prayers.
Grant me the desire to do what is pleasing to You, that I can glorify You throughout my life. Forgive me my sins Lord, and the half hearted obedience that displeases You. Change me through & through, that I can be useful & pleasing to You.
Let me be sensitive to Your voice, that I will know what You want me to do for You. Help me be obedient to You, and to delight in You. Teach me how to fear You, and what it means to really love You and live for You.
I hope when I finally come to see You, You'll say:' Well done, good and faithful servant; you have been faithful over a few things, I will make you ruler over many things. Enter into the joy of your lord.'
If you have anything useful, such as something inspirational or useful for the Spiritual Walk, do share it, mail them to me. I'll post it up here, and will definitely give you credit for it "not money of course!". The Lord will definitely bless you for your contribution. Remember, we're doing this for the Lord, not for ourselves.
Let's glorify our Lord together, and He will make use of what seemingly small in your eyes and make it into something big for His kingdom.
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Guess I'll put these here as well. These poems are written by my sister in Christ, Yi Qing as she was inspired by the Lord Himself. I pray in Jesus name, that you'll be blessed as well, amen.
When God Doesn't Seem To Be Near
"Do you need a sign to feel I’m there,
To be really sure that I do care?
I’m the air you breathe, I’m all around,
I’m there even when things are upside down.
You may not feel that I’m all that near,
No matter how you strain to hear.
But…the eternal Truth will always be true,
That no matter what you feel, I truly love you.
Maybe this is the part you don’t understand,
Why is it you need My help but can’t see My hand.
It’s because, you’ve missed this vital part,
That the reason is because I live…in your heart.
Don’t just reach out to a space so far,
Reach within, into the very core of who you are.
When you believe Me, you ushered Me in,
So when you’re desperate for me, search within.
I’m the reason you live, you belong to Me,
And if you let Me, I’ll live in you and you in Me,
Abide in Me and see, that I will be your God for eternity" says the Lord.
To Whoever’s Out There...
When you’re depressed and feeling lost,
Everything you believe is questioned.
You wonder and wonder if life’s worth it’s cost,
Cuz in everything you just don’t get the connection.
The world is cold, twitched and dark,
Whatever smile you have is fake.
You feel you have nothing actually,
And all that you actually have are lost.
In that deep despair you loose your strength,
You don’t run, you don’t hide.
It all seems so pointless to you,
Cuz something is eating you on the inside.
You think you’re crazy, you think you’d die,
You don’t want to face tomorrow.
You need something beyond yourself,
Yet you try to hide all your sorrows.
Thinking that no one cares…no one understands,
Everything is cruel, just wrong and pointless.
But a knock comes at the door of your heart,
You refuse to be bothered.
An envelope is slipped in under the door,
Just the sight of it makes you feel warmer.
You opened it despite yourself,
It’s a handwriting you don’t recognize.
You read the poem written inside,
And tears flooded your eyes.
Your questions remain unanswered,
Your accusations unjustified.
Nothing is explained, nothing is changed.
Except that now, those are of second importance.
You still don’t understand,
But you’re somehow stronger,
No longer screaming on the inside.
Something in the poem,
Something God said,
Just touched you deeper,
Than anything else would,
Deeper than you had though possible.
Truly…God is a God of Miracles,
Since He has healed your hurting heart?
~Written by Tan Yi Qing~
Some Fun Tests I Took:
Your soul is bound to the White Rose: The Pure.
"I've been waiting in the dark for a long time, shining my beacon of hope through the shadow. If you see me, don't you hide your eyes from me."
The White Rose is associated with purity, honor, and chastity. It is governed by the goddess Artemis and its sign is The Cross, or Agape.
As a White Rose, you are a person of your word. You may have a strong moral code, but regardless of your virtue, you always stay true to yourself. To you, love is the most pure of emotional forms and it's just a matter of waiting for it to bless you. Some people may say you are too idealistic, but it's only because you don't want to mess things up.
Delight yourself in the Lord and
He will give you the desires of your heart.
-Psalm 37:4
Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone. To have
a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly and
exclusively. But to a Christian, God says no. Not until you're satisfied
and fulfilled and content, unreservedly to me alone. I do love you my
child, and until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction to be
found, you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship that I
have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you
are united with Me, exclusive of any other desires or longings.
I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to bring it to you. You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things. Keep experiencing the satisfaction of knowing that I am. Keep learning and
listening to the things I tell you. You must wait. Don't be anxious. Don't
worry. Don't look around at the things that others have gotten or that
I've given them. Don't look around at the things that you think you
want. Just keep looking off and away up to Me, or
you'll miss what I want to show you.
And when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love far more
wonderful than any would ever dream of. You see, until you are ready
and until the one I have for you is ready, until you are both satisfied
exclusively with Me and the life I have planned for you, you won't be
able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me,
and is thus perfect love. I am working even this minute, to have both of
you ready at the same time. And dear child, I want you to have the most
wonderful love. I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your own
relationship with Me, and to enjoy materially and concretely the
everlasting union of beauty and perfection that
I offer you with Myself.
KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU. I AM ALMIGHTY GOD.
BELIEVE AND BE SATISFIED.
Is there such thing as hearing from God yet misinterpreted the true meaning of what God intended to say? Misinterpreting God's will isn't just misleading, but can be disastrous in jeopardizing our walk in living out God's perfect and specific will for each of our lives. I need more discernment in understanding His will, not just hearing from Him. All I can do is to do the above, trusting Him to lead me each step of the way, and that He'll be faithful to lead me back on the right track should I walk astray. Of course, not to miss out on the requirements of being obedient on our part in every step of the way, the known written will of God that we learn from the bible. I'm feeling rather confused, and there is some sort of sorrow and depression in my heart with reasons unknown. Perhaps I've been ignoring my own feelings, like brushing it aside in order to focus on what I need to do and doing so for long has let these feelings accumulate till it came to the point that I do not the true cause of what made me feel this way. Only God knows the causes of my emotion. Other than that, I confess that I haven't' been spending much time with God and have been missing the daily divine appointment, my quiet time isn't that consistent. Too often I was occupied with some other things, my mind couldn't focus on Him when I finally do it, was distracted by other thoughts and weariness. I think this too can be one of the factor that causes my current emotions. Again, the Lord knows. I'll get back to Him.
Anyway, the above is something which bothers me currently and has been happening for quite sometime now. I would appreciate that you'll keep me in prayer that He'll reveal His will clearly to me as I continue to keep myself on the right track with Him. Thank you in advance!
Well, to my friends who have been reading my blog (even if it's a few months ago) and wondered what had happened to me since my last entry which was about 3 months ago, I am sorry for the worries I've caused. First thing first, I'm alright and am currently working as a full-time staff in my church. I'm serving as multimedia personnel in Calvary Communication – an extended ministry of my church (Calvary Church of A/G). Ever since I completed my short term Bible School (AIM – which stands for Asian Institute Of Ministries), I prayed for the Lord's leading and regarding the desire to serve Him fulltime. I acknowledged this issue to my senior pastor during AIM Lunch session and he asked me to pray about it and said that he is willing to help me to get to where God wants me to go. A month or so later, I was asked to help out in designing and editing the Church Camp booklet, and Pastor Steven handed me a form saying that senior pastor recommended me to try out the Living Sacrifice program. Basically, this course requires an interview and all yet senior pastor has actually "okayed" even before I apply for it. Anyway, I took the form home, read and prayed about it and came back to the office to inquire more information regarding the Living Sacrifice program. In the end the head of the Missions department (Pastor Peter) came to me and started with the interview when all I came for was just merely for information inquiries. After the interview, he was pleased with my willingness to serve and mentioned that he will have a meeting with the Missions committee in order to give me the final answer for my enrolment. A week later, I met up with Pastor Peter and he said that it'll be wise for me to get a fulltime job than enrolling the Living Sacrifice due to the situation of my family. He mentioned that Calvary Communication ministry needs people and he suggested me to Jim (the head of Calvary Communications ministry, who is now my boss) and I said that the same thing – that I'm willing to take this leap of faith. A few days later, I was interviewed by Jim and accepted the job offer, started working in August (with 3 months probation) and last week I got a confirmation letter that I've completed my probation and am now officially accepted to continue working in this department.
Personally, I think mine is a rare occasion and this can never happen without God working behind the scene and leading me, opening each door etc. What I've heard is that usually for those who desire to serve as full time staff in my church, they have to go through Living Sacrifice program for a year, they must be an official member of Calvary Church and all. The truth is I am not even an official member of my church yet and here I am serving as an official staff of Calvary Church. I am also in the process of fulfilling my membership requirement now.
In all, I praise and thank Him who has lead me thus far. Even though serving in church has it's ups and downs, I've encountered various challenges (dealing with people whom I am not comfortable with is one of them), learning and doing something which I never studied in my college (I studied business and here I am serving as a multimedia personnel) and lot's more…I'm believing God to lead me from here (where I am working now and all the challenges I'm currently facing I consider as stepping stones – a molding process which God uses to prepare me for whatever purpose He has for me) to where He desires. I need to be strong and I'm relying on His strength each step of the way. I have my fears, yet I also have some level of excitement / curiosity of what God is doing and where He is leading me from here.
That's all for now my friends, till later.
In Him, ~Lawence~
PS: Thank you Beeba and Rita for leaving me messages on the Tagboard. This blog looked so dead and I was thinking of closing it, but now...I think I'll keep it. Thanks so much to both of you, inclusive of those who dropped by.
Brooke October 28, 2006 11:15 AM PDT Dear brother,
First, congrats on getting "officially" hired at your church. Great to hear. :- ) Second, to answer your question, I think that yes, we can in a way "misinterpret" God's leading, but I think there's more to it than just misinterpreting. In my own life, for example, I have made the mistake of thinking that just because God is leading me in a certain direction, that is His final "calling" for my life (think of my being a writer). Sometimes we think we're seeing the final picture when really God just wants us to trust Him one step at a time. So when we assume God wants to keep us doing what He's leading us to do now, we miss out on the fact that often He has bigger and better things planned, whether in the same ministry or a different one. God used my being a writer in many ways: helping me grow personally, making many new friends (not the least of which is YOU :- D ), helping me become more comfortable than I was with spiritual responsibilities, and other ways, and now He has led me here, to Michigan and full-time ministry training in missions work. I try to remember that to assume God will keep us where we are, doing what we are doing, can be harmful not only to us but to others as well, but when we trust Him and keep our eyes on Him one step at a time, we can't go wrong, you know?
"...where I am working now and all the challenges I'm currently facing I consider as stepping stones – a molding process which God uses to prepare me for whatever purpose He has for me." Right on, bro! Just keep that mindset as God enables, ya?
"I have my fears, yet I also have some level of excitement / curiosity of what God is doing and where He is leading me from here." <-- This shows how God has helped you to grow. Your previous entries were almost entirely about fears and struggles, so it is exciting to me to hear you are excited and curious to see what God's up to. This is a good thing... very good. *Grin*
"This blog looked so dead and I was thinking of closing it, but now...I think I'll keep it." Great! I look forward to future posts.
I know this is long, so I'll let you go. I just wanted to comment and hopefully give some encouragement, God willing and enabling. Thanks for all that you do, brother - the prayers, support, and help I know you give to me and others... you are so great. Hope to talk to you soon.
Much love in Him,
Brooke
Beeba October 28, 2006 11:15 AM PDT Happy you are staying!!! You have three cheerleadres right here!!! And, they are the very best, I might add!!! Love you, guy, and may many rich and abundant blessings be bestowed on you. We are here for you!!!
MarthaG October 28, 2006 09:42 AM PDT Hi Lawence. thankyou for praying for my soon, I, m sure he will find a job soon. The bible says where two or more agree in will be none in his name.
By the way I like the picture of your little dog. GOD BLESS YOU
Rita October 28, 2006 08:31 AM PDT Hi Lawrence, I'm so glad you've decided to continue your blog. I sure would miss you. Maybe that's a bit selfish, but it's true. I know without a doubt that God is moving you step by step. Hugs and blessings to you.
MarthaG October 27, 2006 01:16 AM PDT Hi Lawence, I'm new to blog. I'm glad youre not leaving blog. It seems that God is using you in a mightly way. I like to follow your journey with God as he takes you to new heights. Keep up the good work.
